Queendom: It rained. Queen's unhappy.

I fell asleep at 5am+ last night. To my surprise, i woke up at 10am but i was reluctant to get out of bed. I was rolling on my bed until 2pm+.

In between, it rained.

I wouldn't say that this is a very good week. Nothing's going fine. At work, so much choices to make. You have to be at the call of others, that's the difference between working for others and self employed. Perhaps i'm too used to self employment life hence the adaptability isn't very smooth.

I'll never get this emotional shit thing out of me. Always allowing the emotions to rule me in and out. How many times have this been repeating? I don't know, i don't wanna count too.

Taking me for granted, not putting me in priority, what else? Tell me something new please. I'm so sick of this vicious cycle yet i'm not doing anything to it. Just let me rant. Because whenever i wanna let go, i think of the reason why i'm still holding on.

But you never understand me. I thought i'm the most careless person on earth, you're worse. Maybe you're not but it's so hard to hold a relationship with you. It's just so tiring.

I miss you so much. I'll be always waiting for you to reach home be it you're sober or not. It's draining me because i have to work the next day, do you even realize that? But i still waited for you.

Anyway, just let me rant for today. It's such a gloomy day and the weather is as bad as my mood. I was pretty bored at home. Besides clearing my room and table, i practiced a lil' on my guitar. But because my attention is so short that i started to play around with my phone after 30mins on my guitar and i started my infamous 自拍!